just another post…
what a beautiful day Lord!!! sunny, perfect temps, blue sky, nice breeze - thank YOU!!
life sure feels like a mess of different worlds right now. i feel like i’m about 4 different people at all times, with an undercurrent of the stuff with nancy going on in the background of all of it. god it is nice to be able to have some tiem to read, to think, and to write. what am i feeling? how am i doing? the eternal questions for me… and ones that i usually don’t know the answers to right off the top. torn for sure, lazy yes, tired yes, unprioritized, yes.
it’s weird being in the people “business”. obviously not a business at all, but it’s a hard thing to live in a world where you have so many spheres of relationship. there’s my staff guys and neil, who i’m friends with, i’m their boss/manager. there’s my ft people who i’m responsible for on a more touch basis than the rest of the church, they’re friends to varying depths and also part of my charge, then there are my friends in our church who are my charge and i have some sort of weird responsibility for, yet moreso are simply my friends. I have relationships with supporters, who i have responsibilities to yet who are friends to varying depths as well, but i still have these weird responsibilities to. i have family, and right now those are very important and up front peices of our life with all that’s going on with Jayne’s mom. so when you’re in the business of being a counselor and a listener and a pastor and a friend and a son in law and a husband and a boss to all kinds of different people with different expectations it all seems kind of dizzying to me, at least right now. anyways, maybe i’m just too out there to be thinking really clearly about all this.
God thanks for the day. Simply Beautiful.